March 4: Go with it

I've been thinking non-stop about the Big C's (the counsellor's) advice. Do I want to help save some sort of relationship between Bump and FTB? Yes. Do I think it's better that Bump knows who his father is, even if we are not together? Yes. Is it better for me if we are talking? Yes. Do I want FTB to cut himself off from us - purely on his mother's say so. No.
I have a scan next Monday. I invite him along. He says he will come. He is grateful for the invite. I take a deep breath, and hope things will be ok.